Chapter 23
Gonna be running around like a chicken with my head cut off this week. LOL
But I promised story and here it is ... next chapter.
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Chapter 23
What a grueling week this has been. Thank goodness I haven’t had to do it all in the Florida heat and humidity. Trying to look for blessings where I can find them; they’re there but I will admit to struggling to acknowledge them because of the way I was feeling and the echoes of inadequacies that still don’t want to dislodge from the hurtful places they once again took up residence. And yes, I know how much that makes me sound like a drama queen; I’m ashamed of it. But I know how I feel and that is how I feel. I will feel my feelings even if I don’t know why I feel them, but thank God I don’t emote them all over everyone else. Came close once but managed to come out of it relatively unscathed which is something I can’t always say.
Maybe it would be healthier if I could talk about things but I have no one that I can share that depth of personal information with. I’ve had an offer but … I’m trying to leave that stuff behind me; talking about it too much feels like I’m dredging it all back up and I don’t want that. Counseling was mostly over before the final decree was signed because I couldn’t afford it. I had no friends left that I felt safe discussing how I felt with. And now that I’ve moved away from everything and everyone I’m even less inclined to let anyone know just how messed up I still feel. I need this job, I can’t let anyone – certainly not anyone that would let it get back to Mr. Haines – just how unqualified I am for what I’m doing. It almost happened whether I wanted it to or not but it could have been worse and I still have my job. I just need to make sure I deserve to keep it.
Speaking of Mr. Haines, he has been in and out, mostly out, and when he is in he looks more than a little ruffled; he looks what Dad would have called road hard and hung up wet and never being given the chance to dry between rides. Tonight is the first night the power has been back on and quite frankly I feel almost drunk on the luxury of it. I know I should go to sleep but I just want to enjoy the coolness of being able to have the floor fan running to stir up the cooler night air. It isn’t air conditioning per se but given the alternative, it feels like it to me. I think he must feel the same way as he is sprawled, once again, in the recliner. And that is truly strange to think about. He made noise about going to sleep in the office but in the middle of discussing how this week has affected the schedule and routine he’d been trying to establish he fell asleep.
Monday morning after the big storm came obscenely early. Mr. Haines’ hand was still swollen and painful enough that I didn’t have to ask more than once for him to let me put a hand and wrist brace on it.
“Where did you get this?” he asked in a grimace as I adjusted the Velcro straps.
“My brother kept a couple around. After too many doubles in the garage in a row his hands would really start aching and a brace helped stabilize things and let him sleep better. I got rid of the used ones when I went through his … his belongings … after … anyway I guess I am as bad at being a pack rat as you say your grandmother was.”
A trademark snort preceded, “Not hardly you aren’t. Some of the stories my mom told about her … trust me, there is a difference in keeping a brand-new brace for your first aid kit and keeping things like the plastic that used to cover my grandfather’s suits when they would come back from the cleaners. She’d keep the paper that comes inside new shoes so they don’t lose their shape too … uncrinkle it, fold it up, and put it away in case it might be needed for something, only God knows what though. After she passed it took Mom months to find all of her stashes of stuff. More was found when Grandfather finally did some remodeling. It was a bit of a mania for her the last couple of years of her life and Grandfather wouldn’t hear of her being thwarted in any way. She got pretty upset if she thought someone was interfering with her “cost saving activities.” It was almost … well not a relief exactly but … but something that doesn’t sound right no matter what words you use but actually was when it happened. Sorry. Guess memories …”
When he glanced away looking haggard enough I started to worry I told him, “Now you’re doing it.”
“Beg your pardon?”
“Saying sorry too much. Remember … we both understand family history is important. Sharing it is important too. If you can handle mine, then I can handle yours.”
He was silent like he didn’t know how to respond then started sniffing the air before asking, “Is that …?”
“Breakfast? Yes it is … assuming you’re hungry.”
“Starving. I didn’t realize you were cooking. How since the stove lighter is electric and …” He kept following his nose through the thin morning light. He reminded me of Mr. Mole from one of my favorite childhood stories. I almost laughed.
“A grill lighter works when your starter won’t,” I told him. “And if you don’t mind can I serve breakfast on the patio? I haven’t opened but one or two shutters yet and …”
He interrupted with an “of course” and would have grabbed the tray but I managed to slide the pitcher of orange juice into his uninjured hand while I took the tray instead. Mr. Crocker was calling before either of us could finish and I wondered if the man had even slept or had been counting the minutes until he could get away with calling the Big House to give another report.
Mr. Haines sighed and said, “A good bit of Bryson City and the surrounding area is without power. That was a major line that was taken out and it sounds like a substation was also damaged in the slide in some way. I’ll need to go see what can be done but it likely isn’t going to be much but set up a chuckwagon dinner and see how difficult it is going to be to get some ice brought in and keep the water and fuel flowing for the rafting and other activities. It is going to be at least 48 to 72 hours without power. The kids are going to complain but I’ll likely have to transfer power from the dorms to the wells and fuel depot.”
I realized something at that moment. Mr. Haines does not relish having to be the bad guy or strong-arm people and that is the way he feels he is viewed when he can’t come up with an immediate solution to a problem.
I told him, “Well they’ll just have to get over it and suffer along like the rest of us. If they start to moan and groan too much tell them at least they don’t have to deal with 90+ degree heat, the equivalent humidity, and can spend a lot of their time in and out of the river.”
“There’s a silver lining,” he said with a tired grin. After a brief pause he asked, “Did I hear you right? You’ll start canning what is in the freezer and coolers if the power doesn’t come back on?”
“From the sound of things I might as well start immediately … unless there is something else you need me to do.”
“If you can keep things from spoiling and wasting all that money I just spent you take whatever time you need to do it.”
“Just one question … is the water from the cistern potable or do I need to boil it first?”
“It is sanitized with a UV light that runs on a battery and an automatic chemical drop but boiling it won’t hurt to be on the safe side.”
He left not long after that – with a couple of sandwiches I made from the relatively small amount of leftovers from the cook out – and I turned to start tackling the mess I knew I needed to try and keep from happening.
First came pumping enough water to fill one of the sinks with water and into that I set the first batch of beets for cleaning. I took what remained of the corn that didn’t get used at the cook out and decided it was just easier to can it up whole kernel style and save making creamed corn for another day. Then I just started pulling things out and got going.
There was a lot of zucchini to deal with and I made a good start with Sweet and Spicy Zucchini Relish, Zucchini Dill Pickles, round slices of both zucchini and summer squash, shredded zucchini that I canned to taste like crushed pineapple, Zucchini Salsa, Zucchini Strawberry Jelly, Zucchini Peach Jelly, and because I found a tin of it in the cabinets a batch of Old Bay Zucchini Pickle Spears. The yellow crookneck summer squash was just as numerous as the zukes had been. In addition to the rounds, I pickled some, made some Squash Jam, some bread and butter type squash pickles, and some summer squash soup.
I made a boat load of pickled beets and I also made some beet hummus because for me it is a treat. I made Savory Beet Spread, Pickled Beets and Onions, canned the beet greens, and Beet Chutney. I canned some spinach though it isn’t what I would ever say is my favorite, I do like to use it in fillings, dips, and that sort of thing. With the cabbage I canned some cole slaw, started some sauerkraut that I carried down to the cool of the basement to ferment; and, I canned and pickled asparagus. And I didn’t think I was going to survive the carrots … I canned them in sticks, pickled them with dill, canned them in a honey glaze, made a few small jars of carrot hummus, ginger pickled carrots, Mexican pickled carrots, canned carrot and ginger soup, and plain carrot slices since it just needed to be done, and then prepared several pounds to be used in other things … like soups because all of the meat leftovers had to be pressure canned as well.
I didn’t realize what time it was or how tired I was until someone grabbed my waist from behind and when I turned with a jerk I nearly went down seeing spots.
“Whoa. Okay, you’re done. Stacy pull that chair out for me.”
Finally able to recognize who’d grabbed me, “Mr. Haines?”
“Yeah. Stay put. What have you …” Then he trailed off as he finally got a look at all of the covered jars spread throughout the kitchen.
It was Stacy who said, “Wow.”
Mr. Haines looked at the jars and then looked at me and mumbled something to the effect “not a damn slave driver and who does she think she is the freaking energizer bunny.” Or something like that anyway. I was too busy drinking the semi cold bottle of sports drink Stacy had just opened for me. I nearly came out of the chair I’d been sat in when a cold, wet rag was draped across my neck.
It took me a minute but I finally told him, “Don’t pop your cork. It had to be done or everything would have spoiled. And wishing it wasn’t under these circumstances doesn’t do any good either.”
He opened his mouth then closed it with a sigh. He turned to Stacy and said, “Make sure she stays sat and finishes that drink. I’ll go see about filling some of those containers for your mother.”
Stacy watched him walk out and then turned to me and said, “You like to live dangerous. No one talks to him that way but Mom.”
“Mr. Haines is just a worry wort at heart and this was me telling him I wasn’t one of the too many things that he has to worry about. Just tell me what he meant about the containers.”
“Something happened to the converter/inverter thingie at the house. It is draining the storage batteries rather than letting the solar panels charge them up. You aren’t the only one trying to save what it is in the freezer. Lacey is over at the house giving Mom some super quick lessons in canning but they need more water.”
“What are they making?”
“Mostly it is soup and stuff this morning but now they are trying to do something with all the eggs that Dad brought home from the commissary. The families that were supposed to take delivery of them today have all said they can’t because they’ll spoil.”
“Are they pickling them?”
“Yeah, how did you know?”
“About the only way I know to save that many eggs. My grandmother used to talk about other things you could do but the eggs have to be fresh from under the hen. If Lacy runs out of recipes I’ve got some they might want to try.”
“There’s more than one way to do it?”
“I don’t know about there being more than one way but there’s certainly more than one recipe … beet pickled eggs, garlic pickled eggs, golden pickled eggs, spicy pickled eggs, jalapeno pickled eggs, Cajun pickled eggs, chipotle and adobo pickled eggs … and on and on and on and on …”
I was sliding down in the chair as I spoke and Stacy said, “You’re pretty zonked. Maybe you should go lay down or something.”
“I’m thinking about it,” I admitted.
Then a male voice said, “Do more than think about it. I don’t see anything on the stove top so you can’t use that as an excuse.”
“Aye, aye Captain,” I told Mr. Haines with a half-hearted salute.
“Stacy is right. You’re … er … zonked.”
Last thing I remember for a couple of hours was falling across the bed fulling clothed, even my shoes were still on.
But when I woke up they weren’t.
I sat up and when I opened my eyes there was a can in front of my face … a sweaty, cold can of ginger ale to be precise. I followed the hand that was holding it to find it attached to an arm and the arm belonged to Mr. Haines.
“Oh!”
He gave me a look of concern and said, “Drink some of this please.”
“God yes.”
The sugar and fizz finally hit me and I was awake and ready to apologize only Mr. Haines appearance stopped me in my tracks. He was wearing shorts and a t-shirt. He’d thrown a sheet on the recliner and was sitting back down in it. He asked, “Feeling better?”
“Yes, thank you. I’m … uh …”
“Yeah, you were out of it. Mind if I crash here again tonight?”
“No. But … have you eaten?”
“Yeah. Look, let’s just get some sleep. I’ve got another day like today to face way too damn early in the morning. And I know how that sounds and I’m not throwing it at you, I’m just too wiped out to be nice about it.”
“Uh … okay.”
And surprisingly we both went to sleep quickly after that. The next morning Mr. Haines looked like he wanted to say something when I fixed him some breakfast but was too uncomfortable to let it out … or that is what I was imagining at the time. I wanted to ask how bad his day had been but it was obvious he was throwing up walls. I’d seen Kirk do the same thing and the “No Trespassing” signs were pretty emphatic. Once burnt, twice shy; there was no way I was going to even attempt to push through that barricade.
Tuesday was a repeat of Monday except I managed to use more commonsense and didn’t wind up nearly comatose from the hot kitchen that time. I also discovered that the cold drinks had come from a Styrofoam cooler that still had some melting ice left in it.
Mid-day I was about to congratulate myself on having survived saving what was in the coolers and freezer when a couple of understaff from the other side of the Estate show up in a step van and I’m informed that I’ve been enlisted to try and save what was in the freezer and coolers over there. I didn’t have a problem with the idea of it, simply that it wasn’t something that had Mr. Haines’ stamp of approval on it. Unsure exactly what to do I called Sylvia.
Cheerful but obviously tired she said, “I heard you nearly got too hot yesterday. Are you drinking plenty of water this time?”
I sighed. “I was drinking plenty of water yesterday. Problem was I forgot to eat leaving me with a severe case of the stupids. Look, I hate to bother you but …” I went on to explain the unexpected delivery.
She was silent for a moment before asking me to give her a moment to call Mr. Crocker and that she’d get back with me. About ten minutes later the man himself called. “Shanna? Sylvia told me. This wouldn’t have come from Mr. Haines as he is over in Bryson trying to see how wide-spread the power outage is and a likely timeline to get it back on. Frankly I’m not sure who instructed the boys to bring it to you. Sylvia wasn’t sure, how much was delivered and what?”
“There’s over a hundred pounds of ground beef, several roasts, a dozen pork loins, two dozen whole chickens, and crates of fresh vegetables. I can start on this with no problem now that I’ve got the cooler and freezer here at the Big House emptied but I don’t want to touch it without some explicit authorization. There’s no work order or anything and … and after … um …”
“I understand why you would be suspicious. I’m in the dark myself. But frankly … if you can do something to save even a portion of it, it will be more than helpful. There’s another chuckwagon dinner tonight to try and feed everyone, including the Estate guests, but that’s not going to get everything used before it starts going bad. Mrs. Jacobs … one of the Senior Ladies on the Board … is in charge of the food depot and I’d heard she had planned to do something like this. I didn’t know it included the Big House in the plan or I would have warned you.”
Feeling a little trapped I said, “I’ll do what I can Mr. Crocker. Some of the meat is still frozen solid but … but I’m one person.”
“I’d send someone over if there was someone to send over,” he said apologetically.
“No, keep staff where they will do the most good. I’m just a little flummoxed on what they want me to do with it all. Cook it for the potluck? I mean the chuckwagon?”
“No, that is already covered.” After a moment he said, “Frankly this is out of my repertoire. Just do what you can, a continuation of what you’ve already been doing will likely be best. We’ll figure it out after the crisis is over.”
So that’s what I did. However, I tracked how much meat and vegetables I started with, how much I used, and what the results were. For instance, and frankly I hope it is a while before I have to see any more ground beef, the ground beef was pretty lean but I still cooked it down three-quarter of the way. While that was happening I prepared gallons of beef broth from bullion cubes. It takes about six pounds of ground beef to make eight pints. If I had canned all one hundred and ten pounds of ground beef in pints that would have meant … drumroll please … roughly one hundred and forty-six pints. Ugh. No way. Not to mention I didn’t have time for that if I was going to save as much of all the meat as I could. There were two large, old pressure canners that I’d been using – and I also pulled out my newer, smaller one – that would hold nine pints double stacked or eighteen pints total. Using those two canners, plus my own, I was able to have 45 pints of plain ground beef processing at the same time. The rest of the beef I used in other ways … spaghetti sauce, chili, taco meat, sloppy joe mix, and in soups.
Feeling more than a little panicked as it was going to take over an hour – seventy-five minutes to be precise – to finish that first batch of stuff and there was a lot more than just ground beef to deal with, I quickly started the other meat mixes simmering so that they could go straight into the canners when the plain ground beef was finished. I also pulled out the really old canner that I found down in the basement that holds 32 pints or 19 quarts at one time. One problem I knew immediately that I was going to run into was the fact that while jars were no problem … the basement seemed to be providing an endless supply of all sizes … I was going to run out of lids if I didn’t plan carefully. That’s when I switched to using quart jars for the soups and stews. I also threw the whole chickens into the Hansel and Gretel ovens to get them cooking so they could cool and be cut and shredded off the bone … and so I could have the giblets, bones, and the rest of the leftovers to make chicken broth with.
I had a wave of anxiety come over me as it often did when I started to feel like I had too many balls in the air and no one around to distract me from the stress. My hands were shaking so bad I almost couldn’t pour myself a glass of water. I wiped the tears from my eyes and then simply had no choice but to soldier on though my stomach was rolling by the time I got the pork loins cubed and prepared for canning raw-pack.
Thank goodness the stove top was enormous with multiple burners, ovens, and warming trays. I’m sure that I used a good chunk of the fuel but when I tried to say something to explain things Mr. Haines looked at me like I had lost my marbles but more of that later.
Large soup pots soon covered the stove top where the canners didn’t, and in them were things like white chicken chili, chicken soup, vegetable soup, Mexican chicken soup, beef and Guinness stew, split pea and ham soup, beef stew, ham and bean soup, and French onion soup. But then what should I find hidden in the bottom of one of the crates, covered by the three whole hams and a pork shoulder? Six commercial sized bags of meatballs, two large packages of kosher hot dogs, two dozen pounds of bulk sausage, and three packages of kielbasa links. I nearly sat down and had hysterics. Instead I stepped outside onto the patio and stood in the brief, cold rain that fell.
The rain cleared my head and washed away some of the funk I was feeling. I went inside, changed into shorts and a dry work shirt – thank goodness I had shaved my legs Saturday or I would have started to look like bigfoot’s sister. My other head scarves were dirty so I just grabbed what was on top in the drawer and it was a faded, but still obnoxious tye-dye thing that I’d made back in my early college days.
I started more pots: meatballs in spaghetti sauce, meatballs in marinara sauce, meatballs in sweet and sour sauce, meatballs in BBQ sauce, Mexican meatball soup. I sliced the kielbasa and canned them in pints with sweet and sour and BBQ sauces. The hotdogs I fit down into the type of tall, wide mouth jars that you can asparagus in and processed them like it was no big deal and didn’t look really strange when they came out. Then came the bulk sausage. About half I browned and canned like the ground beef and made sure to label well so anyone would know the difference between the two. The other half I shaped into patties, fried, and then put in jars and covered with fresh, melted lard. Maybe it isn’t how the economics teacher would say do it but Grandy and Mom had canned sausage patties like that since well before I was born and no one got sick from it; and it beat having to start from scratch every flaming morning you just needed a couple to round out the breakfast table.
The hams and shoulders were not going to be saved without a battle. As soon as the chickens came out I threw the hams in and baked them before cutting them into chunks for seasoning. Then it struck me that the light was a lot dimmer than it should be. I turned to look out into the kitchen garden and my frustration ignited my mouth. I stomped my feet and then threatened the sun with the butcher knife I was still holding. “No. No. No. You get your big ol’ butt right back up in that sky. This is no time to be laying down on the job, there is work to do. You can set later on.”
Then I heard chuckling behind me and I spun and there stood Mr. Haines, the young man that had been with Stacy Crocker in Bryson City, and Reggie and Bernie. I wanted to throw my hands up and throw something at them at the same time. Instead I just shook my head and asked, “Next time could you please catch me when I’m actually doing something that doesn’t make me look three fries short of a happy meal?”
That’s when Mr. Haines really lost it. As for the other three I don’t know if they were laughing at me or laughing at Mr. Haines laughing at me. When the man could finally draw breath – I had done my best to ignore them all and deal with trying to find some way to get some light so that I could finish what I was working on – he said, “I didn’t even recognize you in that get up.”
“Excuse me and I’ll go change back into …”
“Uh uh. Don’t bother. Too much trouble. And stop before you break your neck. What are you trying to do anyway?”
He’d taken the lantern out of my hands when I had tried to stand on a kitchen chair with it. “I’m trying to get some light so I can finish this,” I answered as calmly as I could while pointing to the mess in all directions.
“And … er … ‘this’ is what?”
I counted to ten … slowly enough that even the Neanderthals stacking up in the kitchen sensed the danger that lay close at hand … and then explained what had arrived on his doorstep not long after the lunch hour.
The humor faded from his face and the others began to sense a weather change and started carrying in some coolers before beating feet to their trucks and leaving.
“Crocker tried to call me earlier but I was working with the emergency crews, trying to find them a level area they could park their equipment. The enviro-geeks are out in full force saying that its global warming causing the unusual weather and blah, blah, blah and generally getting under foot and causing more work. Are you telling me … damn Shanna, you should have tried to call me directly.”
“And said what? You are in the midst of trying to save the start of the season. And I heard you were actually not on the Estate but in Bryson City. I just wanted to make sure I had someone in authority to sign off and confirm what I was being asked to do in case I misunderstood.”
“That’s polite. What you really mean is you were wondering if they were screwing with you and you were worried about taking a fall for something.”
“You say tomayto, I say tomahto.”
He snorted, his anger slowly receding from scorch to simmer. “Look. About this …”
“Like I told Mr. Crocker … it isn’t the work, I just wanted to get a clear message of what was expected. And while I don’t mean to sound cranky, dinner is whatever you want to dip out of any of the pots you see bubbling away. I’ve got to get back to work.”
He made some noise about helping but that’s when the calls started coming in with the day’s reports … they are normally emailed over … and with work orders he needed to approve. I managed to pull the last pressure canner off the burner a little after midnight and I jumped when he said, “Okay, that’s it. If something spoils it spoils. You look like someone has punched you and I still haven’t seen you eat anything since I’ve been home.”
“Huh?”
He didn’t say anything but somehow or other, just like the preceding night I fell comatose across the bed. We both groaned when the phone went off. Hearing a male voice near was familiar but then I nearly jumped out of my skin when I realized that familiar it might have been in the past, my current reality didn’t include it.
“Easy. I’ll get it,” he grumbled and the noise of him getting up in the dark made me realize he’d been asleep in the recliner. I was still tired enough that my vision was blurry as I looked at the clock on the wall … thankfully battery operated so it worked. It read 4:30 in the morning.
I moaned and muttered, “Somebody better be warning us of the four horsemen of the apocalypse or they’re going to wish that is all they have to worry about.”
A tired chuckled had me sitting up straight. Mr. Haines said, “I like the way you think. Unfortunately, it is nearly as bad. I was just informed that the Hen Club is coming … in full force. That was my cousin Danielle giving me a heads up. They’ll be here by seven.”
“Feed, water, or poison?” I asked as I pulled myself off the bed and headed to the chifforobe to pull a clean uniform out so I could dress for the day.
He chuckled again but then said, “I’m not going to ask you to cook for them after what was pulled yesterday. But if you could put that coffee and tea set up like you had before?”
“No electric so I’ll have to pour the coffee into the urn and no refrigeration so the cream is going to have to be the canned variety. And if anyone takes lemon in their tea it is going to have to come from a squirt bottle. Dining room? The breakfast room won’t hold a big crowd.”
“Patio.”
“Weather says rain,” I said squinting at my phone before quickly turning it off again to save the battery.
“Damn, not what we need. Did it say how much or when?”
“Just during the morning hours, brief thunderstorms whatever that is worth.”
He sighed.
Three hours later I was still scrubbing and cleaning pots and trying to get the kitchen to look less like the aftermath of a bomb strike when an older woman walked into the kitchen. I stood away from the sink and asked, “Can I help you?”
After a moment she said, “I understand there was a delivery of meat here yesterday.”
“Yes.”
“What did you do with it?”
“I got in contact with Mr. Crocker and took his direction on the matter. If you have more questions, perhaps they’d be better directed to Mr. Haines.”
That’s when I heard an all too familiar snort. “Told you Aunt Daffy.”